One of the Ugly Truth..

I realized that men are still insensitive, egoistic and selfish.. I thought that these characteristics are gone by now but I thought wrong.. They still exist.. I never wanted to be treated as a damsel in distress but there are times that we women need to be protected and respected. We are now competitive, I get that, but we're still women, we're still vulnerable.. I still believe that men we're born to protect women.. not always but in some ways.. right?

Giving Up

I've read this quote from Grey's Anatomy: 

Because in every relationship there comes a point when the damage is too much and no matter how good it once was, the memories can't sustain you. You have to save yourself knowing all the while it will hurt like hell. Because you can't keep giving someone everything if you get nothing in return...

When do you say it's over? When do you give up,  raise the white flag and surrender? When the damage is too much, dreams are shattered and everything else is broken?  It really hurts to give up and it is really never easy. And you even come to the point that giving up is the last thing that you can do.. Losing everything that means everything to you.. It's like losing someone you never had.. It's heart-breaking but it's true. I'm not saying that once we are hurt, we will just give up easily. I believe that we should not end the relationship right away. We have to make sure that we have done whatever is possible to make it work. But if you have given everything but you got nothing in return as what the quote says, then that is the time for you to let go. No excuses. Just let go. No "holding on" anymore, not even to a single happy memory. That's the only way that you can help yourself from the mess that you're in. That's the only way that you can move on and find love again ...

I spend 23 hours a day wondering whether we’re wrong for each other, wondering whether we’ve got the energy that we need to get through everything that we seem to get into, whether the baggage we both bring would sink a small ship. But in the 24th hour, I realize I’ve been thinking about you for 23 hours and I come back to, there’s something about you I can’t stay away from. Something that makes me want to love you..  ♥♥♥

Weight Stereotyping

I read this interesting article from Glamour about Weight Stereotyping... and I thought that it is really true. People are judging you based on your body. Like me for example, I gained weight for the last 4 months now and most people call me lazy, sloppy and slow. Most people remind me of my weight for like a lot of times every single day..
I myself is a victim of this but I'll admit that I also am guilty. I also judge other people especially women. But since I am now a victim, I realized that this should not be done. As much as possible I avoid giving my impressions towards other people based on their physical appearance.
I've experienced being judged lately, just because I gained weight, I was even accused as pregnant because of the bulging tummy. Well, I just laugh about it. Cause I know they're all a bunch of lies. What's so wrong about gaining weight? As long I still love my body, I really don't care about what other people say, but it becomes so irritating if they keep on repeating that everytime they see you..It sounds so unfair, right?

It's now a trend, women are now judged by their size. When I gained weight, my so called friends are laughing behind my back about how much of an eater I am, as if I didnt know that they're doing that. It has been a sentiment of mine of a long time but lately I realized that what they're doing is wrong and I have to prove to them that they are wrong and I shouldn't be affected by their comments about my personality if none of them were true.
It was a struggle for me at first, I went on a diet immediately and went on exercise. My weight went down a bit and that gave me the determination to continue with my diet. It's not that the results were automatic, it also had it's own time, and people keep on saying that my diet didn't do anything, that I'm still fat and I'm still sloppy. I really don't care now. I won’t let my weight define me. I'm trying my best to continue my diet.
I wanted to challenge all the people that judge my personality based from my body, and that includes friends, and co-workers. I have this punchline that I got from the article: “I wonder why you’d make that assumption about me. You don’t even know me.”

To end this blog, I'll share the most amazing quote that I've read today:

“No woman of any size matches on the inside what she appears to be on the outside,”.

Here's the link to the Glamour article about Weight Stereotyping to know more about it:
http://www.glamour.com/health-fitness/2012/05/weight-stereotyping-the-secret-way-people-are-judging-you-based-on-your-body-glamour-june-2012?mbid=social_plus

I can see myself..

My problem is I can’t stay mad. I always end up forgiving people, even when they don’t deserve it.

A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous.

Just because we’re not close anymore, doesn’t mean I don’t care about you.

The secret of happiness is to do what you like.. The secret of success is to like what you do.

In life, you’re going to be left out, talked about, lied to, and used, but you have to decide who’s worth your tears and who’s not.

You cannot make yourself feel something you do not feel. But you can make yourself do right in spite of your feelings.

3 choices in life: give up, give in, or give it your all. 

Life is like a 1,000 page book. You want to quit halfway through. But then you realize you have a lot left to look forward to.

Sometimes there is no next time, no time outs, no second chances. Sometimes it’s now or never.

Love is like a glass door, sometimes u don’t see it and it smacks u right in ur face..

Missing someone doesn’t really hurt us. It only hurts more when we miss someone who’ll never say “I miss you too."

You can’t save what’s already lost.

Trust is like an eraser, it get smaller and smaller after every mistake.. 

Every time you take my hand I feel your whole life vibrating with mine.

I do it because i can, I can because I want to, I want to because you said I couldn’t..

There are things I want to tell him but they will hurt him, so I’ll keep them to myself and let them hurt me instead.

He ignores you, but you like him. He does nothing, but you fall for him. You miss him… even though you know he’s never thought about you.

*****

I hate myself sometimes..

Sometimes, I want to bang myself on the wall because of my foolishness… I want to laugh at myself for being so childish.. But I can’t help it.. There’s just one person that makes me feel that way.. it’s like I always long for his attention..Corny right? But it’s freakingly true..And what’s worst is, I know it’s not right but I can’t seem to stop myself.. I was once the center of his attention, the apple of his eye„Maybe I got used to it.. Maybe, there are things that just wouldn’t last.. I am just trying to express it today cause it’s tearing me up inside.. I guess, this is the price that I have to pay..I know from the start that I will end up losing but I still did it. I said to myself, this makes me happy so why not go for it? This happiness I know is temporary but it's the happiest happiness that I ever had. Is it wrong to be happy? Is it wrong to seek our happiness? Or is it wrong to take away the happiness of those who already found it?

Borrowed Time

 I heard the song earlier when I was on my way home from work.. I’ve heard this one before but I was under the LSS because it keeps on playing again and again inside my head till now..Maybe because I love Cueshe’ but then again, there is something else.. I searched for the lyrics of the song and as I sang along with the line, I realized that I can relate to the lines that’s why it struck me so much… 

Oh, it’s good to be true,
If our hopes and dreams come true
Wish that I had more
Of this borrowed time
If only it would last a lifetime

Now that you’ve gone away
You seems so close but you’re
Miles and miles away

— Loving someone who can never be yours and spending the borrowed time with him always ends with a wishful thinking that it will never end and that the time will never be yours..